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[26 Nov 2009|10:38pm] |
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Nobody wants me, I'm broken. Posted via LiveJournal.app.
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[26 Nov 2009|10:26pm] |
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Life gives you few reasons to live. ( Read more... )
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[03 Nov 2009|08:06pm] |
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I just realized only 2people on my friends list update their livejournal. LAME
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[14 Dec 2007|08:36pm] |
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I don't really know what is going on today but it is not ok. Everything seems weird to me today nothing is right. My stomach is uneasy, my mind won't stop, and I can't close my eyes. It's not enjoyable, soothing, or calming. It's crazy, depressing, and FUCKED. I don't know what to do, nothing seems to work. I can't go to sleep. NOTHING is ok.....
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[30 Nov 2007|06:08pm] |
WOW so i havnt updated this thing in over a year i really suck. Lets see what have I been up to umm..working a whole lot (its snowmobile season right now so that means tons-o-fun!!..Im trying to get into that border patrol which would be really cool because I would make a lot of money. But it is a very very long process and have already come to some road blocks but im still trying. what else..hmmm you know that usual when im not working im usually at wall st. bar and microwave its a really good place to spend your time ya know!..Well i'll try to update this thing more often if i remember.
Poll #1098227 Winter?
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 2Winter or Summer?
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[22 Jun 2006|05:37pm] |
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so i havnt updated in a freaking loong time. and im not going to right now. ive been crazy busy with work and when i have a day off im out with friends and living at the bar. wall st. is my new fav place..ok kids dont die
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[16 Mar 2006|10:28pm] |
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im going to fallbrook tomorrow...people should be expecting calls dammit!!!!
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[25 Feb 2006|04:56pm] |
to all my people in the san diego/fallbrook area i will be leaving the good ol' oregon thursday to visit for a month to three months its up in the air i got a one way ticket so people should let me know if you would like to hangout...we will exchange numbers....yaaaaaaaaaayyyyy
leaving for portland tomorrow for the spill canvas, motion city soundtrack, plan white t's, and ok go show it will be awesome we got a two room suite and everything...ok hope to hear from some people
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[28 Dec 2005|07:33pm] |
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things have been kinda fucktarded latly. nothing goes my way and i cant seem to do anything about it. so many things going through my head right now i can even begin to break them apart. basicly i hate my life and i hate where it is going. i have nothing to look forward to and nothing to move me forward. ive been thinking about joining either the army reserve or the national guard reserve. i went and talked to the army recruter yesterday and he is looking into where the job i want is that he can get me into the only problem is i have to be off my probation and off my anti depressents for 6 months before i can inlist. tonight was good but then it was also fucked for reasons not listed and wont be. i really dont know whats going on with my life and dont have the energy to fix it at all. i think im going to and have already started to just hybernate i mean nobody will really care i know for sure that if/when i did nobody would come to my house to make sure im still alive cuz i 'live out in the middle of nowhere' so fuck it it will be ok....im done.......
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[16 Dec 2005|03:08pm] |
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so i just got the letter in the mail. as of last monday i was officially kicked out of school. it says in one calendar year from then i can request to be readmits if the committee approves it...what the fuck why am i such a huge peice of shit and cant do anything right in my life. everything is just one big fuck up. i wanted to do something great with my life but i guess im meant to work a min wage job spend all my money on alcohol and just be the fuck up of the family or i can just end it all whatever......FUCK
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[23 Nov 2005|01:00pm] |
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so my sister had her baby lastnight..but i just found out they had to life flight the baby from the hospital she was at to the childrens hospital in San Diego because she has something wrong with her lungs..but i guess shes doing a little better now and might fly her back to the hospital my sister is at on friday then she will have to stay there for 2-3 weeks...life is just soo fragile espessialy that young..life sucks
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[04 Nov 2005|11:53am] |
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ok so those of you who dont know the engine in my truck blew up so i have to pay $3600 to fix it and now i just got a call that i need something else so it will be another $500...god damnit but oh well everything will be new when its all done so no big deal..umm lets see what is new...nothing really..we got the first snow of the season yesterday its cool..umm just been working and drinking a lot as usual...i want to go out tonight but i have to work 5am-3pm tomorrow so thats the sucks...
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[31 Oct 2005|12:50pm] |
a picture from a week or two ago at christmas valley sand dunes...
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[23 Sep 2005|11:39am] |
so lastnight i had this crazy dream. i wont go into what it was but i will say i woke up sooo comfortable and happy but then when i realized what in the dream made me feel so great i got really depressed and emo. i cant get it out of my mind and its retarded im retarded life is retarded love is retarded girls are retarded. basicly everything is retarded and sucks and i suck at it...but anyways school started this week and im already over it fucking school. im sitting at the school bored waiting for my next class to start but it dosnt start untill 1 and its like 11 now. not worth going home and not worth staying here...umm so the past week or so ive just been sitting at home except for the other night i hung out with sal and we got compleatly shit faced i dont even remember most of the night or how i got home/anything after i got home. i havnt seen the girls for sooo long or even talked to them. dont know whats up with that one. i think im starting to push away from people again and i dont want to do that cuz last time i did i lost almost all of my friends. but fuck it im getting soo stressed and pissed right now so im done...nevermind it went away.haha..nobody is online cuz they are all at school or work soooooo bored. i think ill go drink my beer i bought today and listen to music in my truck untill class...haha im such a peice of shit actually im more than just a peice im a huge pile not even that im a mound. actually more of a hill. no maybe closer to a mountain. speaking of mountain i cant wait untill the mountain opens ive been having such bad withdrawls from boarding..man i hope this winter is as good as they say its going to be cuz looooooooots of snow means looooooots of powder which means loooooots of natural hits which means adam going to the mountain everyday getting drunk and snowboarding..yessssss well whats new from everyday...just the boarding part....well i really want to go out tonight but i have to be at work at 5am tomorrow morning so hopefully people will want to go out tomorrow night and party with me...alright im just rambling about nothing and nobody will probably read this far so im done..hahaha...
<3 xxlovexhatexandxslitxwristsxx <3
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[21 Aug 2005|10:24pm] |
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so shit has been really fucked up latly and its just getting worse..i seriously dont know what to do anymore my life is going way down the wrong track. i want to make my life perfect but im such a fuck up it wont happen. i fall in love to fast and wear my heart on my sleeve. all i want to do is be normal and not let things affect me as much as they do..i hate waking up and not wanting to face the world or anything and just curl up in a courner some place and be forgotten so i cant get hurt anymore!. i have been talkin to nancy a lot today and i miss her sooo fucking much! i miss what we had and all i want to do is find that again even just half of what we had would be better than anything i have had in bend..fuck this entry is making me think about more shit soo ill leave you with this..my name is adam larimer and im an alcoholic!
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[18 Aug 2005|06:17pm] |
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so im siting in tanya's room and she it sleeping on her bed its cute. yeah i realized i have not updated in for freeking ever and that sucks. im gunna try to update a lot more latly. ive had soo much fucking shit going on in my life right now that has been making my emo depression soo fucking bad but im so happy i have the best people in the world around me mainly tanya tays blood, and morgan. ive been drinking a lot latly like ever day when i wake up i dont care ive seriously turned into an alcoholic but oh well fuck you if you judge me...ummm..im done
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[10 Jul 2005|10:34pm] |
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ok so on 8.6.05 Deathcab for Cutie, The Decemberists, Built to Spill, Pedro the Lion, Viva Voce are all playin in BEND!!!! holly fucking shit i AM soo going and shit just an amazing show
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[07 Jul 2005|11:44am] |
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ok so my 21st birthday is coming up soon..its the 25th. so there is much partying going on..i got that whole week off work so everyone is invited to the 6day party. the weekend after my bday is birthday camping trip for me and thomas who is turning 21 so everyone should come..much alcohol MUCH MUCH MUCH alcohol..call me for details IF i have them ready IF i like you.buahahah..alright so i just got back from camping with the parents. drank margaritas all day finished a half gallon of cuarvo and a case of beer..is there something wrong with that..NO i dont think so i dont care what anyone says..a week or two ago we randomly went to the coast. it was sooo much fucking fun!!..every part of it. until the end...2hours away from home we got the car impounded. none of us had a valid license and no prof of insurance even though the vehicle had it..but needless to say we finally got back home the day after we were suppose to all be at work. lets see its summer time and ive been partying and drinking a lot but what else is new..im starting my alcohol treatment soon already did the orentation and this month i meet with the councelor to find out what treatment i have to have. oh yeah i get my license back aug 1st..yaaaay i havnt been able to drive in sooo effing long it sucks a huge fat nut!! today im meeting with my advisor for school so i can register. hopfully she will let me cuz im on second academic probation and had to type up this letter and a plan for all the classes in going to take until i graduat. umm yeah i love all my friends ive been hanging out with and my girlz and my drinking boyz are still drinking.haha..ok nothing really else to update about other than ive been losing touch with some of my old friends cuz my phone has been all crazy latly but it should be all good now.
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